Category Archives: my studio notes

I’ve said it before.

I see eating disorder recovery as a journey, a discovery, a stepping stone along the way to becoming a fully integrated person. I see the women who go through this process as extremely bold and beautiful individuals.

two days ago i was feeling blah.

unproductive. lacking energy.
that overall sensation of listlessness that sometimes pays a visit.

and a close friend said to me:
“esprit is a great word for this year!
the cure to your blahs.

what do i want in 2015?

 
 
i want COLOR!
clothing, surroundings, imagination.
 
 
i want DANCE!
movement, expression, story.
 
 
i want LAUGHTER!
happiness, relief, well-being.
 
 
i want POETRY!
imagery, cadence, metaphor.
 
 
i want ENERGY!

UNSETTLED.

the moon shoots sideways
i’m under its spell
so i move too

the force trips me up
but only for a brief pause
the tides fight back
then acquiesce as i roll into them

CHAOTIC. the word of the day.

when we reach for the stars,
should our feet leave the ground?
 
 
sometimes it seems as if we must
suspend reality for awhile,
behave as if our fears weren’t
rooted to the earth quite so firmly.

it may all come toppling down of course,
like a child’s building blocks once proudly
boasting the perfect skyscraper.