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my may goodness

i started a new practice this year.
at the beginning of each month, i excavate all of the goodness of the previous month.
and i sum it all up in a facebook post.

the months of april and may presented trying and tricky times for my family.

cut to the chase

when the rains are relentless . . .

insecurities arise.
tempers flare.
wounds open.
doubts linger.
worries abound.
tears flow.

despair

shaken.
bewildered.
wondering where to put it all.

write.

write to process the grief.
write to calm the agitation.
write to uncover the truth.

the whites, the creams, and the grays (forced self-assessment)

my feelings were hurt this week.

and since it involved something close to my heart,
i immediately became defensive.

but then i stopped myself.
i decided to think more about what had been said,
to see if the accusation did indeed fit.

revolutionary if necessary.

the daily show reported recently that scientists in japan had invented a robot that is capable of recognizing its own reflection in a mirror. “when the robot learns to hate what it sees,” said jon stewart, “it will have achieved full humanity.” (steven pressfield)

funny because it’s true.

my own applause

the month of april brought naysayers.
one of the toughest parts of following a dream.

not everyone is going to understand or agree with the decisions i make.
i know this.
and i still do what i need to anyway.

then why, every once in awhile, does it hit me so hard?

simmering to shimmering

an idea pops into your head,
simmering for awhile.

eventually, continuing to boil,
a dream is hatched.

steaming and bubbling and percolating.
rolling itself into a burning desire.

pull it apart.
dissect it.
pound it.
tear it up.

or simply lay it out.

that inviting red door . . .

once upon a time,
in one of my former lives,
i had a front door that was painted red.

a beautiful uplifting red,
cheery and inviting.
and perfect therapy for those long
(very long) winter months.

just a door.
just some paint.

Retreat no more. Choose to arrive.

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you know what you want to do.

it’s been niggling at the back of your mind for months,
maybe even for years.

perhaps you’ve planned it all out already,
in precise detail.

the teeter-totter dance

semi-seclusion
and a fountain of tears.
fear and panic forcing reflexes
of failure and doubt.

about to give up the struggle, the effort.
in a brief weak moment,
on the precipice of surrender.

approaching the brink.
and at the last second,
hanging on to the slippery edge
in a burst of daring determination.

dreams and transitions

after a long night, lying wide awake,
worrying, tossing and turning,
i was happy to see the sun.*

“behind the pleasure and fresh beauty of sunrise, i detect an old and primitive response: the day has come again, no dark god swallowed it during the night.”
~frances mayes

my days and nights are full to overflowing at the moment.