Category Archives: my studio notes

we are all afraid.
we are all lonely.
we are all frustrated.
we are all bewildered.

none of us escapes these human conditions.
none of us conquers darkness every time.
none of us never wonders why.
none of us has it all figured out.

since our family is far away and the 4th thursday in november is just a regular day on the italian calendar, eric and i won’t be celebrating an american thanksgiving today.

yet that on-our-way-to-christmas aura is still there. i’ve been thinking of holidays past, both happy warm times with loved ones and a few sad and lonely times without.

1. i breathe. deeply, slowly, fully.
2. i write. volumes and volumes of journal pages.
3. i practice. daily qi gong, gentle yet vital, moving meditation.
4. i dance. around my studio, to upbeat pop rock favorites.
5. i read. inspirational uplifting words, escape fiction too.

some days you want to clarify
illustrate fix and explain
a million and one things
for those who doubt and dismay

you want them to get it
to understand
to get you
to really see you

not sure why
because they won’t
and it shouldn’t
even matter

every time you try connecting
with someone you strongly feel
should know you should like you
but really doesn’t who-knows-why

you feel you must tell them
every single detail
fill in every missing piece
keep trying to bridge that gap
convince them

you’re often disappointed
but you rarely learn your lesson
you usually try again

maybe that’s okay though
maybe it means you haven’t lost
faith in the human race

in the kindness and potential depth
of people reaching out
sharing their stories
sharing their lives

maybe someday you’ll know to
only focus on the right ones
to realize that labels given
don’t always mean people behave as such

once-in-awhile noting too
your own reaction to others
how maybe you respond similarly

words tinged with anger jealousy
and fear more often than you admit
even alone and to yourself

how to change the world
perhaps you will agree
it never hurts to concentrate
on being open light and free

 
 
 
 

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sometimes it’s important to confront,
to speak out.
it’s important to deal with pressing issues,
and mindfully set out to resolve our problems.

to wear bold colors
and begin the dialogue.

 
 
other times it’s necessary to cocoon,
to sit with things.