WHY YOU SHOULD NOT COME TO THE ARRIVAL, MY ITALIAN RETREAT
1. You’ve decided to stay stuck in a lifestyle that feels safe. Perhaps a bit boring, maybe not very satisfying, even disappointing or unfulfilling at times. And possibly not genuinely safe either, just what you’ve become accustomed to each and every day.
we all have struggles that keep us up at night,
things that prevent us from dreaming.
maybe you’re good at keeping your
personal battles hidden, as well as
the fear that might accompany them.
sometimes though, the pain festers
until it becomes quite personal.
i shared this image as an instagram/facebook story this week (and by the way, i’m wearing a crown because i’m “queen for the month” every april ?)
so right now, in this chapter of my life, what could i accomplish if there were 9 of me?
verb
1.
calm or send to sleep, typically with soothing sounds or movements
synonyms: soothe, quiet, hush, lullaby
noun
2.
a temporary interval of quiet or lack of activity
synonyms: pause, respite, interval, break, hiatus, suspension, cessation, interlude, intermission, breathing space, moratorium, lacuna
there’s been a lull
in my life lately
a lack of activity
an absence of motion
a pause, a respite
an interlude
a hiatus, a lacuna
(wait – what’s a lacuna?)
after a mini-panic of
not getting things done
projects not attended to
my daily routine halted
i decided to begin anew
(the exact words from my journal)
on monday, april 1
what could be better?
today, on his birthday, i’d like to acknowledge my husband, eric.
adjusting to a new country, a new culture, a new way of being over the last few years, has presented oh-so-many challenges. affecting each of us individually, but also as a couple .
mindful eating is
paying close attention while we eat,
being fully aware of the experience.
though actually a simple idea,
it’s not always easy to do.
taking the time to slow down,
to fully taste and savor food
while not passing judgment on ourselves,
can be difficult for some.
i’ve said it before,
and i think it’s worth saying again.
i am here to hear your story.
i am here to listen.
my coaching consists of
unraveling and integrating,
clarifying and crystallizing.
delving into the life events that have shaped you
and brought you to this very point.
pain leads to knowledge
loneliness to reflection
how do we twist ourselves
round to the light?
fear leads to resilience
anguish to solace
how do we twist ourselves
round to the light?
when we’re hurting,
all alone
when we’re scared,
filled with sorrow
how do we twist ourselves
round to the light?
two things still bother me
almost 17 years later
after we’d finally wrenched
ourselves away
knowing you would never
smile that radiant smile again
we did what everyone
has always done
when they don’t know
what to do
we went in search of food
and the bubbly breakfast waitress
evoked something strange in me
“my mom just died” i blurted out
abruptly, without emotion
my mom, my best friend
who i would never see again
i always made my bed those days
every day, no matter what
rain or shine, late or early
but i didn’t make my bed that day
the day of your funeral
and after the condolence food
several guests made their way
up the stairs, into my room
there was chatter
there was laughter
i couldn’t really comprehend either
all i could pay attention to
was that damn unmade bed
gone forever, you were dead
and i could only focus
on the unmade bed
*******
there is sadness, there is laughter
there is struggle, there is triumph
there is also a healing haven
that allows and welcomes
all that life brings
36-hour whirlwind trip to the
excitingly alluring
breathtakingly enchanting
historically enticing
❤️???
we left villa magnolia at noon last wednesday,
and arrived back home just after midnight friday morning.
my first negroni and some delicious gelato,
the spanish steps with very few tourists,
a vivaldi violin concert in a beautiful church.
