Category Archives: my studio notes

hello again! ciao! checking in . . .

i haven’t checked in here for a few weeks. i guess life has kept me otherwise occupied . . .


 
 
•i’d planned to write a blog post last week. but then i discovered that all of the links to my website were suddenly broken.

the dark and the light


 
 
i don’t like the dark.

i’m not terrified of the dark. i just don’t like it.

the dark is where my afflictions grasp me even tighter. the dark is where my worries of the day turn into a convoluted bubble of discontent.

losing the bruising, brain fog, noticing the beauty

though i’m finally losing the bruising from my fall, it’s still hard to bite down and chew. and over the past week, i’ve also been engaged in an epic battle with my sinuses (which, by the way, they are currently winning).

“you were lucky”

did you notice that there was no blog post last week?

let me tell you why (#4 below), and also fill you in on what’s been going on (other than the regular daily events and errands) over the past two weeks.

a glimpse of G E N O A


 
 
last week i found myself lost in yet another dazzling italian city . . .

its gritty charm and splendor
deeply layered
its cultural soul revealing
the spirit of arrivals and departures

founded in the 4th century bc
independent maritime republic 1005 to 1797
famous foods, famous citizens
fierce ingenuity, hard-earned elegance

for centuries a city of
shipbuilders, merchants, and bankers
medieval, renaissance, baroque, and gothic
art and architecture
a very important mediterranean seaport

my own italian grandmother
departed from this port in 1929
20 years old and leaving her native country behind
journeying to a new continent
with her new american husband

heavily targeted during world war 2
many buildings destroyed or damaged
the first northern italian city to rise
against nazis and fascists

meandering along the famed caruggi
a tangled labyrinth of narrow alleyways
the wandering-and-wondering discovery of
what’s waiting around the next fascinating bend
 
 
a glimpse of G E N O A .

momentum checks

sono le piccolo cose che fanno una grande differenza!

after this sentence popped up in my italian lesson a couple of weeks ago, i couldn’t stop thinking about it. i had embarked on a RHYTHM REALIGNMENT six weeks earlier (to jump back into the flow of my word of the year), and it had been going very well (even despite a few setbacks).

my freedom walk, my perspective shift

yesterday, in bologna italy, i experienced the enchanting strength only a vibrant city on a dazzling summer day can bring . . . and also a sudden and startling shift in perspective, forged even stronger following the recent coronavirus lockdown. truly a touch of bliss.

we can’t always feel strong and brave

you might not know this, but i have aspirin exacerbated respiratory disease (also known as samter’s triad). AERD is a chronic condition that consists of 3 clinical features: asthma, sinus inflammation with recurring nasal polyps, and sensitivity to aspirin and other NSAIDs (like ibuprofen).

this highly unusual year

i thought about not sharing any more entries from my (extensive) pandemic diary, but then i realized “hey, this is life in 2020” . . . for me, it seems crucial to remember the details of this highly unusual year, to honor what we’ve gone through and where we are at present.

the carousel of time

july 26 (from my facebook post, rhythm realignment / day 21):

“and the seasons they go round and round
and the painted ponies go up and down
we’re captive on the carousel of time
we can’t return we can only look behind
from where we came
and go round and round and round
in the circle game”

~joni mitchell

it was time.